Being present in the moment. That’s what I am working on. At least as much as I can. Only Jesus was perfect. I am making progress again. Adulting up you might say. I am sorry I have stayed out-of-touch for so long. It has been difficult time and challeging, but God has brought me through it. I am still bouncing back and forth about whether it is a good or bad thing for me to go to the casino. That has been part of my reason for not posting. I felt like a hypocrite. Sometimes it is like it is my only wsy to have fun. But thst is really just a deceptive thought. I just need to be more creative and a little less lazy. It feels good to get that off my chest.

Wirh that being ssid, I am feeling a lot better about many other parts of my life. Like I hinted earlier, a lot has been going on. I have been in training for a new job for the last five weeks. The stress of change has been felt heavily for most of that time. I spent a geat deal of my free time trying to keep a fibromyalgia flare from ruining my efforts. I accomplished it my praying and sleeping, a lot. I really did not do much of anything else. I have made new friends and that has helped releave that awkward transition period. Some days all I could focus on was the fact that I was there. I may not have retained as much information as might have been prudent, but I could say “I’m here.”

Quiet Thoughts

This will probably not last very long, but I just felt like saying hello. “Hello.” Having had a very stressful day at work, it is nice to sit quietly for a little while. The phone rang non-stop and customers were asking questions in person left and right. No one seemed to have any patience, except maybe myself. There were a few times that I could not take a breath, but I kept a smile on my face and a skip in my step. I almost tripped over boxes of freight, but maintenance stopped by and removed it for us.

Well, that was pretty boring…if I do say so myself. Since I did not follow any temptation to go to the casino this week, I do not really feel the desire to flog myself for it. The people that I am accountable to are proud of me. I am just happy to not be broke. I am happy to not have to bum rides or worry about how I am going to get to work. I do not want to be full of pride about anything, hence I am just finding joy in the fact that I didn’t sin.

I am wanting to let my readers know that I am not calling everyone that goes to the casino or buys lottery tickets a sinner. That is far from my point. It is a sin for me. I cannot go and use self control. The atmosphere of excitement and drinking is not good for me and other people with addictive personalities. I must focus on what my life is showing to others, not on what I can get from money.

Just got off Facebook. Why? I found a post that said to stop scrolling because I knew I should be writing. I know that is true, but it is so much more difficult to write on my phone as opposed to my computer. I find it hard to keep other pages open while WordPress is open without accidentally losing my place. I want to use the Blue Letter Bible app to copy and paste scripture references. Who knows, I may get to write more after I get home.

“The joy of the Lord is your strength”

“The joy of the Lord is your strength” (Nehemiah 8: 10) is one of my favorite songs and scriptures. I sing it sometimes all day long to give me the little boost that I need to press on through the sometimes rough parts of life. In the book of Nehemiah, this prophet of God describes the work of rebuilding Jerusalem. As we travel through our journey on this earth, we find ourselves walking through good times and bad. There can be times when in our lives where we have felt broken or even destroyed, but Christ can help you rebuild you from the inside out.  The Lord does this by giving you beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, and the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that you might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified (taken from Isaiah 61:3.) That is what He has done and is still doing in me. He can do it for you just as well.