Being present in the moment. That’s what I am working on. At least as much as I can. Only Jesus was perfect. I am making progress again. Adulting up you might say. I am sorry I have stayed out-of-touch for so long. It has been difficult time and challeging, but God has brought me through it. I am still bouncing back and forth about whether it is a good or bad thing for me to go to the casino. That has been part of my reason for not posting. I felt like a hypocrite. Sometimes it is like it is my only wsy to have fun. But thst is really just a deceptive thought. I just need to be more creative and a little less lazy. It feels good to get that off my chest.
Wirh that being ssid, I am feeling a lot better about many other parts of my life. Like I hinted earlier, a lot has been going on. I have been in training for a new job for the last five weeks. The stress of change has been felt heavily for most of that time. I spent a geat deal of my free time trying to keep a fibromyalgia flare from ruining my efforts. I accomplished it my praying and sleeping, a lot. I really did not do much of anything else. I have made new friends and that has helped releave that awkward transition period. Some days all I could focus on was the fact that I was there. I may not have retained as much information as might have been prudent, but I could say “I’m here.”