Colossians 3:23-24 says, “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.” When I go to the casino I do not believe that I am doing something for the Lord. I am doing it ALL for me. I may pray while I am there, but again it is usually for me. Sometimes I will pray for my roommate to win because I know she needs money as well. But there in lies the problem. I am praying for the gambling to be the provision, instead of God. I am essentially limiting the Lord in his means of blessing. Is winning when you gamble a blessing? I have thought so many times. When I lose it 5 minutes later because I am jealous of the person next to me, I am being just stupid.
Reasons to never go to the casino or gamble again!
Financial problems that cause me to depend on others. So many people have stepped up to help me get to and from work in the wake of my addiction. Not enabling me, but just making sure I am safe and not walking 3 miles through not so good parts of town.
My children. What kind of example am I showing them about generosity. My gorgeous grandson. I could be lavishing on him instead of wasting and losing money.
My mental and physical health. Staying out until 3 or 5 AM is not good for anyone. Restful sleep does not come under these kind of circumstances. Fibromyalgia does not respond well to it either.
Honestly, I have wanted to go in the last few days. But thank the Lord that I have not had the funds to do so. I have called my sponsor and that has helped a great deal.
Well, I have got to go for now. Hopefully I can come back later today. Or maybe at the doctor’s office.