Coming Back to Life

Back to Life by Mandisa is coursing through my spirit today. I am so grateful for the moving of the Holy Spirit. I prayed and prayed yesterday for God to help me with my physical pain and depression.

Mandisa Lyrics

“Back To Life”

I breathe out confusion
I breathe in Your truth
I breathe out all my fear
I breathe in Your peace

I, I’m coming back to life
I’m feeling hope arise
Because of You, only You
Jesus…
I, I’m leaving the rest behind
My heart is satisfied
Because of You, only You
Jesus!

I lay down my weakness
I take on Your strength
I lay down my defenses
I step into Your victory!

I, I’m coming back to life
I’m feeling hope arise
Because of You, only You
Jesus…
I, I’m leaving the rest behind
My heart is satisfied
Because of You, only You
Jesus!
Only You, Jesus!

Shame and depression, and all anxieties
They have no power over me
Addiction and strongholds, and every disease
They have no power over me
Shame and depression, and all anxieties
They have no power over me
Addiction and strongholds, and every disease
They have no power over me

Oh I, I’m coming back to life
I’m feeling hope arise
Because of You, only You
Jesus…
I, I’m leaving the rest behind
My heart is satisfied
Because of You, only You
Jesus…
I, I’m coming back to life
I’m feeling hope arise
Because of You, only You
Jesus…
Oh I, I’m leaving the rest behind
My heart is satisfied
Because of You, only You
Jesus

Because of You, only You
I’m coming back to life
Oh thank You Jesus
Oh thank You Jesus
I’m coming back to life
I’m coming back to life
Thank You Lord
I’m coming back, I’m coming back to life

I had no reason to be depressed except for maybe the pain. Work is going well. I have a roof over my head and transportation to everywhere that I need to go. Friends that support and pray for me. No real reason to be depressed. I know things have not felt right for several weeks and that there was a change to medication in that time, but there have been other more wonderful things to think about and do. Celebrate my birthday. Enjoying time with my family. Just to name a few.

Writer’s block has been a problem again, but that could just be part of the depression. I’m not wanting to dwell in the why’s of the past. Even if Facebook keeps reminding me of where my life has been this time of year. 2011 to the present. Isn’t Facebook so helpful to remind us of the bad just as well as the good. I haven’t always been lucky or in a good place during the summers of my life, it would seem. I could wonder all day, but I know that that is not productive.

I’m reading about the life of some modern authors. For suggestions really. I really do not need writing prompts as much as I think I need to know that I am not alone in the struggle to keep writing even when nothing can be published yet. Journey to Life is still not ready. So many things keep getting in the way that sometimes I think it was only an exercise in writing. Something to get me through school. Something just for me maybe. At this point I don’t think that it could help anyone to even understand me.

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