So blessed to be forgiven. Glorify the name of the Lord for what He has done for all of us. He loves us all. I may have problems remembering specific things, these are the things that I know…Jesus died for all sin and beat death and the grave. His resurrection is complete. There is no doubt. No matter what.
I know that I am not perfect and He doesn’t expect me to be. I am only to try each day with all that I have in me. The Holy Spirit does the work. I just need to lisren and be willing. It may not always look like it on the outside, but I am giving of myself more each day. I want to be a blessing. I want to give what people need. I am just still so afraid of getting close enough to people to see how I can help.
Sometimes I feel so lazy and selfish, but I know that is not how Christ lived. Just because fatigue kicks me in the rear that shouldn’t mean I don’t have anything to give. Worship and the Word have been the only things that have sustained me lately. Kari Jobe and Hillsong United lyrics have been the prayers of my heart daily. Without the worship, prayer and Word I could not have made it through.
This has been the only writing I have done in weeks. It feels so good. I shouldn’t have to make myself do what I believe God gifted me to do. Writing is a passionate process for me today, but for some reason I have ran from it. Fear. Mistrust. I do not know why. I am so grateful for God’s grace during my struggle with my calling.
I have to get back to work. Hope to be back soon. Praying so.